When I was a little girl one of my most favorite things to every summer was spend time at my Grandma's house over in eastern Illinois. I would get to go visit with her and my Grandpa for at least one week every year. Heck, sometimes two.
One of the best things about her house was waking up in the morning. From the moment you woke up you could smell the fresh air and breakfast cooking in the kitchen. Grandma's kitchen was bright and airy and the floor was always chilly when you stepped in. The coffee was always on and Grandpa was always sitting in his chair at the table by the window. That site and smell will forever be etched into my memory.
Today at work I opened the window in my office. It didn't take long for me to notice the smell coming through: Grandma's house. The fresh air and coffee smell made me miss my Grandma. And every time I think about her I hurt just as much (if not more) as the day she suddenly passed.
Words cannot describe how badly I miss her.
I love you, Grandma. And I miss you even more.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
the hills are alive ....
With the sound of music... Or just the breeze blowing through our windows!!! I am loving the weather today! It's so nice to have the windows open and not be cooped up in this house. I love fresh air, sunlight, etc... but Tom says we have to keep the blinds closed when it's super hot out. So I am rather happy right now. Woo! :)
Might be going to the State Fair parade tonight. It will be my first. Not sure what the fuss is all about but I suppose I'll find out. Hope it's worth it. :)
Going up north this weekend for the mother-in-law's birthday (it's today). Should be a good time... I haven't seen her or great Gram for months now. Unlike some women, I actually like my in-laws. Which is still weird to say... 'in-laws.' Oh yeah. I'm married.
Lots of baby news... Check out her site if you'd like.
Might be going to the State Fair parade tonight. It will be my first. Not sure what the fuss is all about but I suppose I'll find out. Hope it's worth it. :)
Going up north this weekend for the mother-in-law's birthday (it's today). Should be a good time... I haven't seen her or great Gram for months now. Unlike some women, I actually like my in-laws. Which is still weird to say... 'in-laws.' Oh yeah. I'm married.
Lots of baby news... Check out her site if you'd like.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
once again...
It has been a while.
Sometimes I don't know why I start things like this. I never keep them up to date. But whatever.
Not a whole lot has been going on. I'm still fat. Still a mom. Still a wife. Working on the still being fat part though. This baby weight (plus the other God only knows how many pounds I've gained on top of that) has really got to go. I've finally decided to give up chocolate cold turkey. It's the only way this flab will disappear. And yes, I've known that the whole time I've been shoving it into my mouth. I just needed to get a grip and stop. It has finally happened.
In other news... well, there isn't much.
Tom and I finally had a date night this past Friday. But of course, as usual, I found out the day before that I had to be at work four hours early the day after our date. That *ALWAYS* happens when Tom and I are finally able to go out. And no, it's not like it happens every weekend. But Tom and I only get to go out once every few months so it just seems like it's ALL THE TIME.
Man, we REALLY need an evening babysitter so we can go out more.
Sometimes I don't know why I start things like this. I never keep them up to date. But whatever.
Not a whole lot has been going on. I'm still fat. Still a mom. Still a wife. Working on the still being fat part though. This baby weight (plus the other God only knows how many pounds I've gained on top of that) has really got to go. I've finally decided to give up chocolate cold turkey. It's the only way this flab will disappear. And yes, I've known that the whole time I've been shoving it into my mouth. I just needed to get a grip and stop. It has finally happened.
In other news... well, there isn't much.
Tom and I finally had a date night this past Friday. But of course, as usual, I found out the day before that I had to be at work four hours early the day after our date. That *ALWAYS* happens when Tom and I are finally able to go out. And no, it's not like it happens every weekend. But Tom and I only get to go out once every few months so it just seems like it's ALL THE TIME.
Man, we REALLY need an evening babysitter so we can go out more.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
a new me. well, maybe.
So I'm really trying to do better with the whole weight loss thing. I've lost two pounds since Monday so I guess I'm doing well. Woo!!! Now I just need to start working out.
We had a nice trip to St. Louis on Sunday... Even though I'm not a Cards fan I HIGHLY recommend the Champion's Club there at Busch Stadium. I am forever spoiled. No more regular seats for me. High class all the way! :)
Indy went well. And we got to visit friends. Always fun.
My little sister is coming over today... I've been looking forward to it! Funny how things change when you get older. When we were growing up we practically hated each other. Then I went away to college and things changed, which was good. I've always felt like a mom to my siblings instead of a big sister. And we're not close at all. I need to make a better effort at changing that.
We had a nice trip to St. Louis on Sunday... Even though I'm not a Cards fan I HIGHLY recommend the Champion's Club there at Busch Stadium. I am forever spoiled. No more regular seats for me. High class all the way! :)
Indy went well. And we got to visit friends. Always fun.
My little sister is coming over today... I've been looking forward to it! Funny how things change when you get older. When we were growing up we practically hated each other. Then I went away to college and things changed, which was good. I've always felt like a mom to my siblings instead of a big sister. And we're not close at all. I need to make a better effort at changing that.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
still fat.
We were at Mike & Tracy's last night celebrating the 4th.
Needless to say, I ate too much of food that was WAY too bad for me.
And now I feel like complete and udder CRAPOLAH.
I still don't get why I can't just get back into the swing of things and it's really starting to make me feel like a loser. *tear*
Moving on to happier things. Tomorrow is Tom's and my first trip away since the baby arrived. Well I suppose it's more bittersweet than just happy. We'll miss her like crazy but it will be nice to get away and have a date. We haven't done that in a while.
Needless to say, I ate too much of food that was WAY too bad for me.
And now I feel like complete and udder CRAPOLAH.
I still don't get why I can't just get back into the swing of things and it's really starting to make me feel like a loser. *tear*
Moving on to happier things. Tomorrow is Tom's and my first trip away since the baby arrived. Well I suppose it's more bittersweet than just happy. We'll miss her like crazy but it will be nice to get away and have a date. We haven't done that in a while.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
I'm fat.
And I don't mean the p-h-a-t kind. I mean the real f-a-t kind.
I don't know what is wrong with me. I need to lose about 50 pounds or so to get back to where I was at my lowest weight... And for some reason I have NO motivation. You would think that staying healthy for my baby or wanting a career in law enforcement would be enough. But no. It's not. I continue to eat bad food and too much of it. I don't exercise.
What happened?? I used to workout every morning. I'd lose 2-3 pounds a week. Now, after gaining 20 baby weight pounds (I've lost 40lbs water) I KNOW what I need to do. But I don't do it.
When I look in the mirror, I see a somewhat skinny face. But then I see a picture of me and I want to puke. I am a few pounds heavier than I was at my previous highest weight and it makes me sick. Why can't I just get with the program already????
I don't know what is wrong with me. I need to lose about 50 pounds or so to get back to where I was at my lowest weight... And for some reason I have NO motivation. You would think that staying healthy for my baby or wanting a career in law enforcement would be enough. But no. It's not. I continue to eat bad food and too much of it. I don't exercise.
What happened?? I used to workout every morning. I'd lose 2-3 pounds a week. Now, after gaining 20 baby weight pounds (I've lost 40lbs water) I KNOW what I need to do. But I don't do it.
When I look in the mirror, I see a somewhat skinny face. But then I see a picture of me and I want to puke. I am a few pounds heavier than I was at my previous highest weight and it makes me sick. Why can't I just get with the program already????
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